Reality Check

Do you remember a couple of weeks ago I posted about my weight loss goals? How I said I didn't want to change the way I was eating and would only weigh myself once a month? Yeah I do too. Yesterday I told my husband that I thought our cat was fat. We were discussing whether or not the dog was eating the cat food. He said it was the dog and I said it was the cat. Anyway I ended up proving it by getting on the scale to weigh the cat. The truth is I was mortified at my weight gain. So now I know I need to be proactive and do the work.

So let's call this the start of phase two.

I am going to count calories on www.sparkpeople.com

My goal is 1500 calories a day.

Honestly I have done this before and the reason why I have been dragging my feet is because the first 4-6 weeks sucks. If you want to do it with me that would be awesome. I could use the encouragement and a partner in crime.

I am also going to do the exercise plan that sparkpeople.com sets up for me.

I am going to keep doing couch to 5K

Did I mention that sparkpeople is a free program? It is. Does that help convince you to join me? No. I don't blame you.

I got this wonderful idea from http://www.aturtleslifeforme.com/2012/05/trim-down-thursday-2-with-nutrisystem.html

Each one of these stones equal half a pound. I decided to go with half pound measurements so that I will be able to move over more stones. I know from past diets that sometimes I only lose half a pound and I want to count that.

So I went up one pound in two weeks. I am going to stop making candy for awhile. Since it seems to be sticking around for longer than I would like. I have next to no self control if the candy is in the fridge. It is bad! Monday at 7:30 will be my weigh in time.

I have 22 pounds to lose. Which may not seem like a lot but to me it feels like a rocky mountain and I am at the bottom not even at base camp looking up. I know I can do this and that it will get easier once I get started. So if you are in with me, I am begging now (please, please, pleeease I don't want to do it alone), I know we can make it to the top.

I hope you are having a wonderful day filled with love and laughter. Be well my friends.

Warning Bikini Body

Um, well not really a bikini body at all. I warned you. The other day I was reading a blog about the beginning of a weight loss journey. Really I felt like it was more about the pre bought meal plan, you know the ones that send you all of your food. I am sure that they are great plans that work but isn't anyone worried about the over processed food? Where is it that you learn to prepare healthy food? Or where is it you learn about the actual food? These plans are made so that you lose weight with out thinking about it as long as you only eat what they give you to eat. Honestly the only reason I have never tried one of them is because I do not want to spend the money and now I know to much about where food comes from to want to eat any kind of processed food. I am getting off on a tangent believe it or not I was not planning that. The point is in all of the start up posts people are willing to say I have X amount weight to lose and I am going to follow Y diet. Maybe I have been guilty of doing this in the past.

Moving on I struggle with where I think my weight needs to be. If you have been reading for long you know that I suck at dieting or at least following diets. I want to be totally honest and open with you. It is brutal and I am stalling. Today I am going to show you where I am and tell you why I think I need to be some where else.

What I totally warned you about this Bikini Bod.

The side view awesome.

You know side views are kind of hard to do in a small bathroom with a self timer.

Front again. I want to cry. So if you don't have anything nice to say please don'

t say it to me. Oh, yeah. White is beautiful.

Last but the least favorite my weight. 1 6 4 . 2

Part of the reason I decide to post these is so that I have before picture to measure myself by. The other reason is most of the time I hide my weight well in clothes. So I have been told I don't need to lose weight. The cold hard truth is right now I am not healthy. I have been totally defeated by that scale and slowly as the weight didn't come off , or it did but then came back I have gotten lax, lazy. Lazy on choices (um homemade marshmallows, twix bars, peanut butter bars, cookies, should I continue or just assume that to be the worst offenders. . . I got lost in the battle of the numbers, and the more I tried the less I saw the scale move down. I quit. That is right I am a quitter. I weighted until my pants don't fit, I am tired all of the time, and eating eating eating.

The good news in this mess is. . .

Today is a new day and I am not going to follow a diet. I am not going to weigh myself more then once a month. My plan is a five part plan, or a two part plan. Okay so my plan is to be flexible and change slowly. I am not going all out hard because I get burnt out fast.

Part 1. Admit that I have a problem. Check
Part 2. Couch to 5K http://www.c25k.com/c25k_treadmill.html

 

Week	Workout 1	Workout 2	Workout 3
1	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:00: Run 6:00-7:30: Walk 7:30-8:30: Run 8:30-10:00: Walk 10:00-11:00: Run 11:00-12:30: Walk 12:30-13:30: Run 13:30-15:00: Walk 15:00-16:00: Run 16:00-17:30: Walk 17:30-18:30: Run 18:30-20:00: Walk 20:00-21:00: Run 21:00-22:30: Walk 22:30-23:30: Run 23:30-25:00: Walk 25:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:00: Run 6:00-7:30: Walk 7:30-8:30: Run 8:30-10:00: Walk 10:00-11:00: Run 11:00-12:30: Walk 12:30-13:30: Run 13:30-15:00: Walk 15:00-16:00: Run 16:00-17:30: Walk 17:30-18:30: Run 18:30-20:00: Walk 20:00-21:00: Run 21:00-22:30: Walk 22:30-23:30: Run 23:30-25:00: Walk 25:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:00: Run 6:00-7:30: Walk 7:30-8:30: Run 8:30-10:00: Walk 10:00-11:00: Run 11:00-12:30: Walk 12:30-13:30: Run 13:30-15:00: Walk 15:00-16:00: Run 16:00-17:30: Walk 17:30-18:30: Run 18:30-20:00: Walk 20:00-21:00: Run 21:00-22:30: Walk 22:30-23:30: Run 23:30-25:00: Walk 25:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk
2	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:30: Walk 8:30-10:00: Run 10:00-12:00: Walk 12:00-13:30: Run 13:30-15:30: Walk 15:30-17:00: Run 17:00-19:00: Walk 19:00-20:30: Run 20:30-22:30: Walk 22:30-24:00: Run 24:00-26:00: Walk 26:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:30: Walk 8:30-10:00: Run 10:00-12:00: Walk 12:00-13:30: Run 13:30-15:30: Walk 15:30-17:00: Run 17:00-19:00: Walk 19:00-20:30: Run 20:30-22:30: Walk 22:30-24:00: Run 24:00-26:00: Walk 26:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:30: Walk 8:30-10:00: Run 10:00-12:00: Walk 12:00-13:30: Run 13:30-15:30: Walk 15:30-17:00: Run 17:00-19:00: Walk 19:00-20:30: Run 20:30-22:30: Walk 22:30-24:00: Run 24:00-26:00: Walk 26:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk
3	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:00: Walk 8:00-11:00: Run 11:00-14:00: Walk 14:00-15:30: Run 15:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-23:00: Walk 23:00-28:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:00: Walk 8:00-11:00: Run 11:00-14:00: Walk 14:00-15:30: Run 15:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-23:00: Walk 23:00-28:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-6:30: Run 6:30-8:00: Walk 8:00-11:00: Run 11:00-14:00: Walk 14:00-15:30: Run 15:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-23:00: Walk 23:00-28:00: Cooldown Walk
4	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-8:00: Run 8:00-9:30: Walk 9:30-14:30: Run 14:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-21:30: Walk 21:30-26:30: Run 26:30-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-8:00: Run 8:00-9:30: Walk 9:30-14:30: Run 14:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-21:30: Walk 21:30-26:30: Run 26:30-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-8:00: Run 8:00-9:30: Walk 9:30-14:30: Run 14:30-17:00: Walk 17:00-20:00: Run 20:00-21:30: Walk 21:30-26:30: Run 26:30-30:00: Cooldown Walk
5	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-10:00: Run 10:00-13:00: Walk 13:00-18:00: Run 18:00-21:00: Walk 21:00-26:00: Run 26:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-13:00: Run 13:00-18:00: Walk 18:00-26:00: Run 26:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-25:00: Run 25:00-30:00: Cooldown Walk
6	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-10:00: Run 10:00-13:00: Walk 13:00-21:00: Run 21:00-24:00: Walk 24:00-29:00: Run 29:00-34:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-15:00: Run 15:00-18:00: Walk 18:00-28:00: Run 28:00-33:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-30:00: Run 30:00-35:00: Cooldown Walk
7	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-30:00: Run 30:00-35:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-30:00: Run 30:00-35:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-30:00: Run 30:00-35:00: Cooldown Walk
8	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-33:00: Run 33:00-38:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-33:00: Run 33:00-38:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-33:00: Run 33:00-38:00: Cooldown Walk
9	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-35:00: Run 35:00-40:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-35:00: Run 35:00-40:00: Cooldown Walk	00:00-5:00: Warmup walk 5:00-35:00: Run 35:00-40:00: Cooldown Walk

As you can see this part is a nine week process. If I can run three miles, three times a week I think I will be doing good. So I am not going to change my eating or add any other pressure to myself other then this straight forward plan. I am going to walk at a 3 and run at a 5. Starting Monday. Why Monday well because I am going to do a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule.

Part 3. Check in with new updated pictures on the 18 of June. Hopefully we will see a difference in all areas.

Part 4. Change diet around. Notice that this part take place in the second month. So I am not going to worry about it until then.

Part 5. To be determined. Flexible.

So I right now I am 164.2 pounds which puts my BMI is 25.71 which means I am overweight. The normal weight range for a healthy BMI is 18.5- 24.99. So my goal weight should be between 118-158. Now before we get started on goal weight ideas I want to tell you something about me. When I was 18 I was eating maybe once a day and walk 5-10 miles everyday and I weighed in at 135. As I am no longer 18, wish to starve myself, or going to walk that much again it is safe to say that 118 is underweight for my body type. I am not a doctor but I am going out on a limb here when I say 135 is also not a good goal for me. Come on I had two giant children naturally my hips have widened and I am not going back. So Where does that leave me with a goal weight? 145-155. Now 145 might be stretching my limits but I think it is good to have two goals one maybe I can do and one that I know I can reach.

As for goals I think a size 8-10 is a good place for me to be. Right now I am rocking 10-12 hard, and I have the evil red marks to prove it. The truth is I am not looking to look like I did years ago, or even some random celebrity, first of all I think it is unrealistic to think that i could look like anyone of them. I simply do not have the money or drive to. I read some where that Jennifer Aniston spends more then 45,000 dollars on her looks. I am just saying unrealistic. . .

So I want to feel strong and confident. I hope you don't mind my random updates on the matter. Hopefully my bikini body will be trimmer next month. So here is another thing if you want to start somewhere and need support. I am ready and willing. Do not be afraid of who you are of who you want to be. You can start anywhere. There is no shame in where you are because it is about where you are going. One little choice at a time. I know people who start with giving up sugar, or soda, or just that one thing. There is no time limit and we all have to start somewhere. Maybe you want to start with exercise. Walking is great and it is free. Find something you can do and go for it. I believe in you, in us, and in me. We are strong and will only get stronger.

I hope you are having a wonderful day filled with love and laughter. Be well my friends.

My scale is after me!

The thing about the new year is facing the holiday aftermath on the scale. It is bad, real bad I gained between 4-6 pounds by eating yummy holiday food. Which is never nice to see after I worked so hard to lose the 15 pounds last year. I of course started searching for diets that I could try. Last year I gave up meat for lent, tried and failed at the 17 day diet, and also sparkspeople. Sparkspeople is a great website to help a person lose weight. The problem I found is the calorie counting, I make so much of our food from scratch and we also switched to only eating grass fed animals which are lower in calories then the grain fattened animals I was spending a lot of time on sparkspeople recipe calculator to figure out how many calories I was eating. Basically the problem with all of these diets was me. Writing this I realize that what I need to do is to throw out all of those wonderful excuses and buckle down. Between you and me I am not likely to do that. Currently I am taking two courses toward my college degree, homeschooling the boys, cooking our meals from scratch, and trying to keep up on the house work. I am not interested in spending twenty minutes calculating the calories in say a roasted chicken, roasted brussel sprouts, couscous, and a slice of bread (dinner last night).  I am just going to focus on exercise this year and not what the evil scale tells me to focus on. How many of us let the scale boss us around, put us down, and cause drama? Please don't let it be just me (fingers crossed). I am going to walk on my treadmill at least twenty minutes 5 days a week. I would like to increase my exercise a little bit each month. I am hoping that by doing this will help me feel better and maybe lose a little bit of weight as a bonus.

The number doesn't matter that much right?

I hope that you don't let the scale get you down because you are beautiful just the way you are. Also I hope that your week is filled with love and laughter. Be well my friends.