What makes you happy?

That is a question I have been asking myself for a long while. I keep thinking of the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. If you have not seen please go now and watch it but I warn you now that you will cry. At one point in the movie Benjamin Button says:

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

This has stuck with me, lodged it's way into the deep recesses of my mind. When I feel overwhelmed or discontent it bubbles up and plays like a broken record. I ask myself what it is at the root of my problem. I know that no one else can solve it but me. I can ask for advice and complain about it. The truth is I have the answer inside of me and all I have to do is be brave enough to ask the question. What makes me happy? I close my eyes and just let my mind float until I see the answers. For me my family comes first. I love them. Then I picture writing and my soul hums because even if I turn out to be horrible at it. I love it. I love creating people and lives and stories. So even if it is always just for me, it is mine. Then a cow with dark eyes with a sweet disposition chewing her cud. Colorful chickens pecking at the green grass. Creating whether is sewing, crocheting, painting, or any other thing that comes up. For the record my dogs, and the idea of sheep also make the list. What does not is school. I spend a lot of time stressed about it and most of the time I am left slightly dissatisfied with a class.

So what can I do to help my self? I  switched from an English major working towards a BA to a general AA. I do enjoy learning but I feel like the literature classes online leave the learning up to me. There is very little direction so I spend a lot of time researching topics, how to write a critical paper or what I should be gaining from reading a Shakespeare play. I have been thinking, praying, and discussing this with my husband for months.  About an hour after the decision was made I felt a great relief as if the weight was lifted. I know I made the right choice. So instead of a slow and steady pace for the next 8-10 years I will be finished with my AA next year.

Be brave friends. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. Find what makes you happy and go for it.

I hope that your day is filled with inspiration, love, and laughter. Be well my friends.

Random scattered things.

If you have been with me for any amount of time you know that I am random, often scattered, flighty, and mostly content being all of these things. I have embraced my own crazy. Lately my scattered braininess has been weighing heavily on me. I am almost unable to complete projects, start projects, or even worse yet stay on task. I have decided to try to straighten up a little. That means that I am going to try and focus on managing my time, and energy. I am going to take a short break from my regular scheduled blog posts. I am just not going to put so much pressure on when I post recipes, or poems. Although I love Recipe Tuesday and Poetry Thursday, it just means that maybe I won't be posting every week on those days. On the other hand maybe I will. I am just going to take some pressure off of myself.

Also I need to make a list of projects that I want to do. Most of those projects involve the sewing machine and granny squares. The truth is I need to fit projects in around school, my school, and the boys school. School needs to be a priority.

Right now I am unorganized and all of my random scattered things are affecting everything. So first thing is schedule cleaning up (ok so I need to make a schedule and follow it). The second thing is I need to stay away from Youtube. Third thing I need to stop watching so much TV. Fourth thing Make quiet time project time (this way instead of becoming one with the couch I can say spend an hour a day working on a project). Fifth thing I must schedule exercise! Six thing a load of laundry a day keeps the monsters away. Seventh thing schedule cleaning (assign chores to all members of the household, So that I am not the only one doing the cleaning.) These are my new goals. I am sure that I will become regular on the old blog no later than next month.

 

I hope your day is filled with inspiration, love, and laughter. Be well my friends.

Poetry Thursday

Today I knew what poem I wanted to post for you but Youtube only had a couple of poorly read versions. It is a short poem so I am just going to post the poem itself.


Eternity
William Blake

He who binds to himself a joy
Does the winged life destroy;
But he who kisses the joy as it flies
Lives in eternity's sun rise.      


I hope your day is filled with inspiration, love, and laughter.

Crochet square for May?

I know that today is the day I would normally post the granny square for the month but I am behind. I hope that you will forgive me.

Here is a nice and easy square that should help me get back on schedule. If you are ready to move to May's square you will be able to. I will do a proper post as soon as I am caught up.

I hope your day is filled with inspiration, love, and laughter. Be well my friends.